It’s common at this early stage to see your relationship as an emotional death camp, with no chance of pardon or escape. You may decide to stay for many reasons-fear of being alone, guilt, the children, financial security, a sense of moral responsiblity–but you’re likely to assume that love is gone forever and that your partner is incapable of meeting your needs.
I know for my husband, he felt like it was over and that i would never even consider working this marriage out. To be honest at the beginning he was correct, he hated him with everything inside me, he broke my heart. I think that with all the reasons listed above is why my husband didn’t want me to leave and begged me to stay. I also think that he loves me and doesn’t want to lose me.
Self-Disgust: “I have nothing to say in my defense. I feel like a sleaze.” You may also feel deeply ashamed of yourself for violating religious or family values that enjoined you to honor martial vows and stay the course. Sometimes there’s no justification for the wretched, even diabolical way you treat your partner.
There was honestly nothing he could say to me that would make what he did to me ok and right. He was ashamed and felt like a complete loser for cheating on me. He claims that he has prayed and asked God for forgiveness and for him to help me forgive him, i just don’t think he’s praying hard enough, because my heart is still hardened. He didn’t honor our vows and i remind him of that almost everyday. Which in some ways i believe could be doing more harm than good in this marriage. I know for us there was times when he would be a complete butt to me for no reason at all, or would start a major fight with me and tell me he hates me and can’t stand me, but then tell me he’s sorry and loves me. I couldn’t even imagine holding such a guilt in my heart and not telling anyone out of fear.
Guilt can be a healthy reminder that you’ve been untrue to yourself, a message to live more closely to your convictions. Among those qualities you may fault yourself for are:
- feeling so insecure, so uncertain about yourself, that you become vulnerable to the attentions of those who build you up;
- keeping your unmet needs from your partner, then going elsewhere to have them met;
- feeling entitled to have your needs met without regard for the needs of others;
- ignoring or being unaware of your own personal conflicts, and blaming your unhappiness on your partner.
You have NO right to blame your partner for you affair–no one makes you cheat.
I know for me my husband blamed me or tried to blame me for the affair, telling me that i was never home, and he got lonely. That i wouldn’t have sex with him and that he had to beg for it. I do believe he was very insecure about himself and someone came and lifted him up. But like i told him no one put a gun to his head and made him do it. He chose to do it on his own and he has to live with the consequences of the decisions that he has made.
Women have affairs to experience an emotional connection that they feel is lacking in their primary relationship.
I can honestly say that this is true. We do get very emotional when we have affairs, we are emotional beings as it is. Everything is about love or hate to us. We are not physical people when it comes to affairs it does start with our hearts. However, the other person involved doesn’t always have emotion or feelings they are there to be there.
Men, in contrast, are more likely to have affairs that lack emotional attachment.
I agree and disagree. I think that some men do get emotional attached to the relationship and tend to allow their hearts to get involved. I know for my husband he claims it was just sex, but i personally think it was more than that. I know in the beginning he said all she did was want to sleep with him and several other men. I did find out that she was very much a whore and slept with several MARRIED men at the same time and has ruined several marriages. It is just sad that there are people out there that no respect for themselves.